Yesterday, we had a terrifying experience.
There was almost a big fire in our home. The electrical panel suddenly caught fire. If it hadn’t been for the quick reaction, the house could have burned down. The smoke filled the rooms so quickly — you literally couldn’t see anything.
I was so scared. My mom took me out to the balcony so I could get some air. In that moment, I felt completely helpless. There was nothing I could do.
I can’t run. I can’t jump. I can’t grab a fire extinguisher and put out the flames. I simply can’t — not yet. And thinking about that made me feel even worse.
Thankfully, my fiancé and my mom were there. So were my friend and my cousin — they helped so much. Together, they managed to control the fire. Then the fire department arrived. There was so much chaos. And after that, we couldn’t stay in the house anymore. Everything was covered in soot.
It’s painful to realize how limited you are in situations like this. You don’t know what to do. I kept thinking about my cats. What if I couldn’t save them? Luckily, we have a garden and they ran outside. But what if we had been in an apartment building? What then?
That thought really shook me. I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I know I’m making progress. I’m trying not to let this experience pull me down. But it’s hard not to think: I need to work harder. I need to heal faster.
Even when life shakes us, we can choose to rise again — stronger.
Because life is so unpredictable. Anything can happen — to you or to someone you love. And when it does, you realize just how important mobility is.
My mood dropped after this. For the first time in two years, I truly didn’t know what to do. I tried to move on like nothing had happened. Yesterday, my mind simply couldn’t process it.
But now, after some sleep, I’m slowly understanding what I’m feeling. I feel sad.
And I want to get better.
I want to be stronger — now. Right now.
Strength is not just in walking or moving fast. It’s in facing fear and still choosing to move forward.
I will keep moving forward. I will keep building strength — for myself, for my loved ones, for the life I want to live.
If you are on a similar recovery path, know this: it’s okay to feel shaken. It’s okay to feel afraid. But don’t give up. We are stronger than we think. And step by step, we can reclaim our lives.
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